Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Here it comes!

35 Patients on a alzheimers/memory-care unit...........

1 new-grad RN

Lord, help me.

I would be lying to you all if I said I'm not a little bit nervous.

I start my Per-Diem job tomorrow. This is a little something I'm doing to "get my feet wet" until I start working for the hospital.

Most orientations for new grads lasts a few weeks of classroom & on-the-job training. Mine will be 3 days of OJT.

I will always keep this job on the side -- so I can keep my head in the geriatric world...since I kind of want to be a Geriatric Nurse Practitioner some day down the road....

The silver tsunami is coming, my friends.

However, I am going to put my nervous feelings aside when I walk onto that unit tomorrow morning at 6 am. And show the world that I can do this. The world seems to think new grads are incapable. Tomorrow is my day to prove the world otherwise! I'm ready for this. Nursing school was never overwhelming to me - and neither will this be!

(cute pep-talk, huh...)

I always have had a special place for the geriatric population in my heart!! Especially the pleasantly confused.


I am so excited for tomorrow! Wish me luck!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Ten on Tuesday!

1. What keeps you up at night? (figuratively)
Sick worry about never being hired full time as an RN. Fear that my hospital will just never contact me.

2. What keeps you up at night? (literally)
Well, I literally don't sleep well at night due to this fear. So I often find myself up walking around, thinking I'm going to be physically sick at about 1:30 am, 3 am, 4:30 am, 4:45 am, until I finally just get out of bed. It's like clock work. But hey, last night I only woke up 3 times -- so I'm making improvements!

Besides this little phase-o-hell.....nothing keeps me up at night! A train could come bursting through our bedroom and I wouldn't know.
3. Where do you want to go in life? (figuratively)
I want my career to be fulfilling. (Right now it's hard to ever give a damn about a fulfilling career..I just want a career.) I hope that in 15 years I can list of all the areas of nursing I've placed my footsteps within, and be a "go-to-gal" for areas of clinical expertice. I hope to be a nurse practitioner OR manage a unit within a hospital.
I wish for my marriage to continue to be such a happy, fulfilling, and amazing one :)
4. Where do you want to go in life? (literally)
To a quaint little cabin up in the mountains with Ryan where there's snow and a fireplace -- where we can hike, may do some skiing, sip coffee with Bailey's in it, and cook delicious meals, and just spend time together!! Just for a few days -- that's all I ask!

To see my family -- and I will in November which is coming soon! Yay!
5. Have you ever bit off more than you could chew? (figuratively)
I don't think I've hit that point yet. I mean, I've had short little moments in life where I felt overwhelmed.

We'll see how I feel Thursday when I'm caring for 35 patients... as a new grad.

That may be a moment where I say "I've bit off more than I can chew...." We shall see!

6. Have you ever bit off more than you could chew? (literally)
Yes. On my second date with Ryan in fact. We had gone for a lonnng run together - and decided to hit up a Mongolian grill for dinner back in my sophomore year in college.
....We got to the point where it's time to choose your 'sauce'. I, being "tough girl", took the spiciest one. Ryan warned me saying, "Um. I'd recommend doing something a little less intense. That's like, really insanely spicy."

But I'm stubborn, and persisted.

I took my first big bite (I was starrrving). And he was right! It was so hot I was in tears. I had to actually run to the bathroom and spit it out. I started coughing the heat was so intense.

So much for being "tough"....

7. Is the grass really greener on the other side of the fence? (figuratively)
No. Unless you look at it as though it is. See, in Tucson we don't have grass. So it's definitely not greener. Unless your neighbor has turf (which many people do around here)

You can always look at parts of someone else's life or situations and say, "They have it so much better"

However, often times you don't know the whole picture and need to look at your own blessings.
8. Is the grass really greener on the other side of the fence? (literally)
Yes. We don't have grass - we have rocks. Our neighbor spends probably 6 hours/week re-seeding, re-sodding, watering, primping his grass. So his grass is greener.
9. If you can’t stand the heat, do you get out of the kitchen? (figuratively)
I usually get out of the kitchen. I tend to feel safer walking on egg-shells around certain situations/people than facing them. I try to avoid "heat"/drama/conflict as much possible. It usually works out quite well! :)
10. If you can’t stand the heat, do you get out of the kitchen? (literally)
Yes. Whenever I set off the fire alarms in our kitchen I go into the living room and start fanning the smoke away from the alarm, and Ryan takes over the cooking.

We've tried other "plans of attack" - and this plan has been the most successful.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Ode To the Sister

So, there I was at the grocery store picking up some odds and ends to make a delicious soup.....

(It was rainy and 80 degrees today - which means EXTREME FALL/WINTER weather in Tucson. Watch out! Therefore, I had to make a soup from scratch. I also whipped up a home-made loaf of bread)

When I realized, "I need to gather some supplies to send a care package off to my sister, Lisa, for her marathon coming up".

When i realized she leaves in like 2 DAYS for the destination of her marathon! (Portland, Oregon next Sunday -- woo hoo!!)

I live in Tucson, AZ.

Which would mean it would take more than 1.5-2 days for my "care package" to get to her on time.

So, Lisa -- I am sorry for my lack of schedule and consideration. But the thought was really there!!!

4years ago when she ran the Twin Cities Marathon -- I was a freshman in college. I boxed up so "Gu-Packs", new socks, a card, and "sports beans (which are claimed to have electrolytes in them) -- and sent them to Minneapolis.

But this race snuck up on me.

So, here is my ode to her! (I know it doesn't replace a package-o-love...but...)

  1. Although sometimes Lisa may be a "Type A person, and sometimes isn't the MOST patient person in the world. I give her a lot of credit of patience for.... Growing up (as her little sister/biggest fan) -- I followed her EVERYWHERE.
  2. EVERYWHERE!!!And I never stopped talking her poor ears off....
  3. Lisa inspires me.
  4. She trained for her 1st marathon, while working full time, while going to grad school, while maintaining a normal life.
  5. She is one of the most motivated, driven women I know. This lady lets nothing get in her way!
  6. As we've grown a little bit older, and have moved away from each other -- we have grown very close.
  7. Although it stinks we only are able to physically see each other a few times/year -- I have blackberry messenger to thank that keeps us "hooked in" nearly every day of the week!
  8. Everytime we get together -- my cheeks hurt from laughter as we reminisce on stories of growing up.
  9. Lisa is a very determined marathon runner. I know she is going to do incredible in her marathon on Sunday! Every stride she takes of the full 26.2 miles will be with the utmost determination and drive!
  10. Wishing I could be at the finish line with a red Gatorade and a hug! Love you!!!!

She flew out to Phoenix, AZ the weekend of my birthday. Look how the Midwest has thickened her blood, and the Southwest has thinned mine. I'm in a winter coat -- she's in a tanktop! Sad (on my part- haha!)
Christmas 2009