Monday, June 6, 2011

Rekindling an old "flame"

Back when I was about 17-18 years old, I thought my life as an adult would be consumed by playing music. I assumed my Sunday mornings would be spent accompanying the church choir.

Music was something I identified myself with. When I thought of "me" was something that came to mind.

Then I went to college, moved to Tucson, got married, became a nurse, started working........and now when I mention to someone I play a variety of instruments...they are very surprised. "You?!!?" 

It's really sad that it's become such a distant part of my life,  as prior to choosing to be a nurse - my 1st "major" in college was to be a music teacher.

I miss it. Whenever we go to a play, talk about going to a Tucson Symphony Orchestra concert, or when I listen to classical music..I almost always get a little teary/weepy eyed.

We happen to have an electric keyboard at home, which is something generously borrowed to me by a good friend of ours. But lately, its taken up space & collected dust.

The other day, I said to Ryan, "Let's just give that keyboard back to him. There's no sense in having it here." But Ryan objected stating he won't let me get rid of something I enjoy so much. I had the day off. I had plans of cleaning, organizing our new office, and other task-y things. Instead, I sat down and played!

It started out rocky (I haven't played since about October or November). All focus leaned on utter frustration that I just don't play like I once did....

And then I looked at the clock & realized an hour had gone by. My old songs were coming back to me.

I feel very relaxed and peaceful this evening. This may need to become more of a frequent ritual for me!


B and B said...

“Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul.”

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

First off - when i saw this post title I thought - oh no, she had another encounter with a bbq grill! ;) Ha.

I miss playing piano so much. I loved living at DG because of that grand piano we had (among other things, I really did love that house). It is to soothing to play the piano. It's like running for me - my mind can go elsewhere.

Good for you for taking the tijme to do something relaxing!!

Marlys said...

I love the poem Barb posted! I think I shall memorize it! Music is the sound of angels - well most music that is! I long to retire and find time to play the piano again! Glad you made the time to do that! And do make the time to attend the symphony! Dad & I used to have season tickets for the FM symphony and they were the most exciting, relaxing nights I can remember! Even your Dad enjoyed them!

Xaarlin said...

Just found your blog and this post is so close to my heart.

I also majored in music in college. I played clarinet professionally in an orchestra for a few years but had to get a "real" job and haven't touched my instruments in 3 years. Can't bring myself to attend an orchesta concert either.

Glad to hear you played again. I'm sure it was enjoyable.

Cherry Blossoms said...

I had no idea you also now have to eat gluten free. Hope the transition is going well for you. I do suppose it helps that more and more food items are being made gluten free. If you have a Sprouts in Tucson they usually have their gluten free items on sale.