That has since changed.
I'm going to be honest and say that I really feel at peace with my decision. For if life has taught me anything over the years, if you're going to make a decision, do it with all your heart and don't look back!
Why the sudden change?
I learned that finding an apartment that offers a 5 month lease is nearly impossible. I researched about 12 different apartment complexes in the area, narrowed it down to 5 in the Riverside area that didn't worry me that I'd get shot while walking out to my car at night. (Riverside has some shady areas...)
I finally found one place that offered a 5 month lease, as they try to cater to military residents.
But here's what almost made me laugh. When I asked if they offer furnished apartments, they said "Yes, but your problem will be that we only rent out furniture for 3, 6, 9, or 12 month leases."
So I moved to Plan B. I decided to suck it up and live with Ryan in a hotel on base again (like we have done these past 4 months). I called the Air Force Inn that's at March AFB. Not only do they not have a kitchen, but you have to share a bathroom with other guests.
That was my breaking point. I can "white trash it" for a few months. A crock pot can be my main cooking appliance. I can use a pantry as a closet. I can live in a room that barely has a window - that is so dark that a day in the room could drive a person to a deep depression....
But I cannot share a bathroom with random other airmen. That was my cutoff. Ryan was in complete agreement with me. That's just fricking weird.
So we have decided to go with "safe" (instead of adventure). I will stay at our home in Tucson, while Ryan lives in Riverside and finishes up pilot training. It's only 5 months. And LA is only a 6 hour drive! It's a 1 hour flight. We will try to see each other every other weekend.
The obvious con in this situation is living apart from Ryan for 5 months. He's my soul mate, my best friend, and life isn't very fun without him. But we are strong, and will make this work!
The pro's are:
- a job I love
- a great group of friends that will be there for me every step of the way
- my runnning/triathlon group to run and bike with
- our house will be safe under my supervision
- biweekly trips to California!! (Well sometimes Ryan will be coming my direction, too)
- Ryan will be able to put his 110% into this training during the week when I'm not there
So now I am just savoring each moment that we have together. Life is about to change again! But I'm okay with it. Isn't it always changing?
I promise this should be the last 'life changer"/"life decision" post for awhile! I will return to decorating this blog with rants, recipes, and running. But it's been hard to think about those things lately, when such big changes are coming up!